...Cos I saw on the news today

._. bueno que puedo decir.... me siento muy muy extraña.... tanto esfuerzo he hecho... tantas cosas he pasado y no me siento feliz con el resultado de tanta lucha.
aveces quisiera olvidarme de esa lucha totalmente, tomar un tiempo para curarme y no pensar mas en ello. pero el mundo entero me lo impide, la presion sube, yo contengo mis lagrimas....

si todo lo que hago es malo, si todo lo que hago lo hago a escondidas.... si mi alma es mala y de mi solo puede salir traición... si eso se espera de mi, las ganas de demostrar que no es así se me quitan. que piense lo que quiera.... que mi espíritu se muera.... ya no me importa.
me undo sola.... me estreso sola.... no debería sentir estas cosas desagradables, sino felicidad. pero no es así. y yo no busco mi felicidad, busco la ajena... y quiero ver una sonrisa en los rostros de los demás, y olvido luchar por la mía.

hoy veo como esta la situacion, solo me keda esperar, esperar cuanto pueda soportar, con algo de ayuda me quitare este peso...

yo me entiendo....

la cancion perfecta para este momento es esta:

Certainty In Freedom
de Kris Rowley
http://www.krisrowley.com

If I had the will to talk
I wonder if you'd give a thought
To what I had to say - help make it go away

Cos there's certainty in freedom
And in that we must believe in
Cos I saw on the news today

If I saw you in the street now
Would I look the other way?
I hope I'm strong enough to say - help make it go away

When all you see is hatred
Spirits crushed and souls deflated
Easy to leave it for another day

Peace is pushing for love
Love is leading the way
You should follow its path
Darkness leads you astray
Peace is pushing for love
Love is leading the way

So this, my only voice to speak
My message strong, my tone is weak
I find it hard to say - help make it go away

And if I come across obtuse
I urge you now to cut the noose
Don't leave it for another day

Peace is pushing for love
Love is leading the way
You should follow its path
Darkness leads you astray
Peace is pushing for love
Love is leading the way

If I had the will to talk
I wonder if you'd give a thought
To what I had to say - help make it go away

Cos there's certainty in freedom
And in that we must believe in
Cos I saw on the news today

Peace is pushing for love
Love is leading the way
You should follow its path
Darkness leads you astray
Peace is pushing for love
Love is leading the way